Pathway 1: Individuated Creation

Pathway 1: Individuated Creation – Al-Mubdi

So I did my usual flick through the book to see where I needed to start on this journey. I asked for the pathway that would most help me as I set out on this growth path and the pages fell to pathway number 58. “When you are guided to this pathway, take the opportunity to find the place in you that is helping you to grow more and more into yourself – a unique, fully human, being.” (p158)

Interesting, I thought. Upon first reflection, I was thinking but I’m here to be a spiritual being not a human being, and then it hit me that actually being in a human body makes me very human, and perhaps this journey really is about fully exploring our human as well as our soul.

In exploring this pathway, we explore that our human and our soul have a shared existence. The book talks about this idea that we have agreed to experience and live this existence in order to pass it on to others, just like our ancestors did before us. This pathway is about real change that comes from the heart in the way that we see life and our experiences.

We can take something that may be negative and make it into a positive. We can also take what we know to be our positives, and ask the Divine to make these grow in order to serve humanity. In reflecting on this, we realise that everything can be changed, or effectively everything is constantly changing.

Imagine there is a whole process of transformation occurring for you somewhere in the cosmos, yet while you struggle to accept yourself, while you continue to judge yourself, you’re almost standing in the way of that powerful process.

We work on self-help and transformation, but this is telling us that alchemy is a given and perhaps the only thing we need to do is to recognise the qualities in ourselves, and see even those qualities that we view as a “liability” (as the book puts it) as a gift.

We can change to meet each moment. That is profound, but when we think about it, this is something that we do all the time. The power is in our hands is what this is telling us. Transformation is a capability that we can tap in to if we wish to. It’s there, just knowing how to get to it.

And so, I begin with the practice of centering in the heart and seeing what resonates. Immediately, I find myself asking the Divine to change me for the better, to transform me to what each moment asks of me, and to do this honestly.

I’ll be back in a few days with more insights. I feel this one is going to take a little time to embed. In the meantime, here’s the Video Link – Just Click This!


The miracle

So continuing on from yesterday’s blog. I feel I have more information to share and so I thought I would knuckle down to writing this piece just to share the learning.

I’m in a place in my life where I have a lot of decisions to make, and this morning I walked in to my healing room thinking, “God – I need a miracle.” So I sit down at my desk, and my friend calls so we’re talking away. On my window sill I’ve propped up a diary that my sister made for me. The cover is embroidered with the words, “Miracles happen every day.” On this cover, is a bee. A big fat furry bee. He isn’t moving, I know he’s not dead though. I read that when bees get tired, this is what happens so I grab a date, split it in half and put a couple of drops of water in it.  I make sure the bee gets a whiff and place it down so the bee can drink.

So the bee comes to life again. A miracle. Miracles do happen every day. So I look up the bee as a spirit message because I’m wondering what the universe is telling me. And it says, when bee comes buzzing in to your life, expect a miracle. Need I say more?

We start with this idea that everything is connected, so even though yes and no seem poles apart, they are connected. Everything is connected, and one of the first things that I noticed was the synchronicities that are occurring in my life right now. Little things have kept happening to make me think that there is more at work than I am seeing. I’ve always believed there was, but when you see it  manifesting before you, it takes your belief to a whole other level.

I started this journey with so many niggling decisions to make so the yes and no thing made sense for me. I needed some help with this. The practice was to feel in your heart the energy of yes and no. So you take a deep breath and affirm yes and notice how the heart and the breath react. You do the same for no. This is our internal guidance mechanism.

I noticed my heart more than my breath, and with the yes I could feel my heart expanding and the breath flowed easier. With the no, I felt my heart contracting, and it felt like the energy was harder and not in flow. This you would expect, but then how do you apply this knowledge in day to day life?

I think I’m quite good at reading intuitively, but I think having this practice with me over the last couple of days, I would take that back and say I am extremely good at reading this for other people, like my clients or friends.

Knowing your own yes and no is always a little trickier! Over the last day or so, I think the lesson I am learning is to say YES to me. I’m always doing things for other people, and I’ve always thought that my service through my work sort of meant that what I want takes the back burner.

It’s strange because I’ve been noticing what it feels good to do, and those things are things that have been purely for me. I’ve treated myself, I’ve laughed. When I’ve been having good quality conversations with people, and learning and sharing, I’ve not put myself under pressure for not getting work done. These interactions are what enrich my life.

I’ve realised that time for me in the morning, alone where I dedicate quality time to myself is important before the world starts making its demands on me.

I’ve learnt a lot in terms of saying no as well. It’s opened me up to understanding how I don’t want to offend, and this is an important lesson. In this work, often people ask you questions and make requests that you don’t want to grant because they are not giving you an exchange in return. I am always polite and helpful, but this week I’ve been direct and turned those requests down. The no energy is what I’m sensing, and I feel secure that’s my answer and I am honouring that. I would do normally, but I would wonder whether that was the right thing to do. This somehow feels different. It’s the affirming to myself that I am following the flow I think that makes it a nice way to be.

I have learnt so much in the space of a day just by noticing, so I’m really excited to see what happens on the rest of this journey. Even writing this, there were times where I felt very vulnerable, and so that listening to yes and no has become my go to. It comes directly from source, so I can’t get it wrong.

What feels good for you is where you go. In the flow. No resistance. Simply trust.

Miracles happen every day!


99 Pathways of the Heart

Welcome to this new series of blogs which will be about my own personal journey navigating the pathways of the heart using Neil Douglas-Klotz book “The Sufi Book of Life.” This book has inspired me for years, and I have bought it and given it to friends and family. It is an absolute treasure trove of wisdom and I am so grateful for it!

I’ve had this book for years, and I’ve always opened it when I was in need of guidance. It has never let me down! Along with the guidance, is the name in Arabic followed by a meditation and it’s amazing how much serenity the practices bring.

I filmed the YouTube video before I wrote this piece. The words on the first page struck me right away, and gave me confirmation that I had set out on the right path, with the right intention!

He writes, “A good place to begin any journey is to practice the feelings of affirmation and negation, so that when choices arise, we can really feel how each alternative resonates within our innermost being. This is one way we can clarify our own sense of affirmation or resistance. Knowing our own true yes and no is part of being fully human.”

This blew me away as when I was introducing what I was about to do, I spoke about taking what resonates and leaving what doesn’t. For me, it felt like a real confirmation that I needed to take this journey, and it would lead me somewhere amazing!

The meditation asks to be still and learn what your yes and no feel like. This is deep. The body has a way of telling you what feels right and what doesn’t feel right. It is only with the stillness, with the nothing that you can feel and recognise these sensations. My practice today will be about feeling my yes and my no and in doing so, feeling the flow of yes and no in my life.

I feel I need some time to explore this, and so I will be back with what I have learnt when I have something deeper to share.

In the meantime, I hope you enjoy watching my ramblings over however long it takes me to get through this! Please do get in touch with your own insights, as I would love to know what is resonating with you.

Lastly, I’d like to give credit to the author of this amazing book. I hope it continues to inspire and empower people as much as it has me.

Blessings and Peace





Natural Healing Methods are the best!

We all go through periods in our lives where things really are shifting. When things started shifting for me, life really wasn’t very pleasant at all. I had to experience a great deal of grief to get here.

I remember in my saddest moments thinking to myself, “I really don’t know if there is a way out of how this feels.” That thought in itself is heartbreaking. I had several friends who literally had to scrape me up off the floor. I could not see a way out anywhere.

Everything I looked at was painted with a brick wall. I was struggling to smile, I was struggling to do anything. Everything I did just felt forced.
I think the saddest thing for me was that I didn’t feel like anyone would understand me. I couldn’t explain to myself what the pain was or why I was feeling it.

I was keeping myself in that place.

The only thing that gave me comfort at that time was to cry my eyes out and I had no control over this. It was like being dragged through broken glass and no matter how much I cried, I still couldn’t get away from that feeling I kept feeling in the pit of my stomach, my chest, the choking in my throat. That feeling of feeling completely drained and exhausted from the tears, being awake all night, not being able to eat, and then having to do it all again the next day. This went on for months and it really was torture. For me, it was the extreme, and this may not be the same for you, but I bet you can relate at some level.

Do you know what I’m talking about? Have you ever felt like this? Of course you do. We have all had moments, or weeks, periods of time like this. Its common and its not often shared as its difficult to talk about. Nothing I’m saying to you will be new to you and if you’ve felt this, you’re with someone who knows.

Hard to believe when you see me now that I came past all that. As difficult as it was to find help, I turned to Healing. It took time to get to a point where I felt I could take responsibility for myself getting better. I was a Healer myself which made me feel a bit more unworthy, but everyone needs helps sometimes.

I think the moment I said to myself, “why are you doing this to yourself?” was a lightbulb moment. That was an accidental realisation, but it was powerful!

I realised that like it or not, I was in control of being out of control.

I went to see my Healer who really helped me to start shifting things energy wise. My fears and my experiences help me to get to the core of what my clients are struggling with. I also went to see a Maori Healer called Anaru Paine. This was another intense treatment which was really physically as well as emotionally intense.

Sometimes the pain goes deeper, especially if it’s been with you a while.

You don’t have to understand healing to know that it really does work and my client reviews will give you confidence in that fact.

If you can relate to any of the stuff I’ve talked about, then Healing is definitely for you. I have been there, and now I am here and I know that what I’ve been through has happened for me to light up that pain so that I can help get you through it quicker and easier than I did.

If you’re umming and aaring, just get in touch with me and lets book you in so that we can get to work and get you past the crap that holds you down.

Look at what I’ve done in 2 years…this could be you…choose action…choose healing works.

Love and light,
Hafsa xx